Romance and Roaming Man

Welcome to the quest of a burning man. The romanticised recollections of women dear and of whom I cherish. I've promised to place many a child in many of their wombs. I caused more wounds that I soothed, I raise my hand to the incompetence of machismo. I raise my hand to my ego, thinking that I can survive without you. I understand love comes and goes, love comes and helps grow too when in absence you reflect. The better days are yet to flee, I look upon love lost with such sweet melancholy. Now stage, scene and set.

Her soft lines and smooth contours accented dior.

The aura and demeanour meant that to judge the book by its cover would demean her.

Who am I to deny her reality?

Time and space, our paths crossing just another factor of causality.

Dainty pretty little fucking thing, I’m trapped between pleasureful sin or feeling whole within.

I fucking hate eye candy, I can’t deny a sweet reality.

I’m spoiled, there’s plenty fish in the sea.

I’m moored.

My love is flawed and I love interacting with you.

You please my soul, I go hard cause I want you whole.

How could I ever let you go?

3 - 12/10/21

Tired of talking to these women.

Mind and heart are entangled as I run my fingers through her hair.

Untangling as I make known my presence here.

She’s tryna run through life like a hare, I’m tortoise with it.

I brought the pot, put it in a bong and made that water bubble like it was about to boil.

I ripped that wrapper like it was some foil, I unwrap the crack.

Let’s get into that wap.

Take my time with it, I’m a fool.

A chair is still a chair, a room is still a room and I’m still such a tool.

Cause this house is not a home without you.

This heart is of no use, I use you as my muse, I might as well give it up for transplant.

I placed the twig I cut from the tree in the ground, nurtured it, and watched it branch out.

I’m impatient and patient to a fault.

I led that horse to water, but that’s not what it wants.

17 - 16/10/21

So close to asking my female best friend to fuck.

Oh fuck, I’ve fallen off.

I’m off the top, I’m off a lot, mind and heart have lost the plot.

There is no land to grow on.

The allotment I had has withered with my woes, it’s been months since I picked up a hoe.

Hoes lurking, pretty women twerking, I’m just flirting with duality.

Two sides of the coin, I’m just flirting with insanity.

A bleak reality, I love my women sick, overflowing with vanity.

I lack confidence and I’m always high on passion.

Let me ride your wave of self satisfaction.

22 - 22/10/21

Dainty, pretty little thing.

I see you looking good with your fit from pretty little thing.

I shouldn’t objectify women, misguided.

Pretty little miss guided me from the abyss of toxic masculinity.

I toked it like it released me, you release me.

I was entitled but now I’m unencumbered.

Man marking, girl I have your number.

I’ll make you cum till you’re numb, like you really failed no nut November.

How could I have been so foolish?

One sided pleasure, how could I not see that the true euphoria was in you giving me all of ya?

Why would I smoke around you when your presence was more than enough ecstasy.

It took my ex to see the wrong I did.

I took my ex to the seaside once, that cold breeze battered me.

I’m now living a lonely life like I was born alone.

The need to procreate, the need to be able to relate and the aura of you.

I see your smile, you’re truly fine but the gemstones lay in what this person sees.

The real attraction is in the personality.

6678 - 28/11/21

Gestalt.

I saw the whole, on to the putter.

I thought I saw the hole.

Diver got us here

I drove her far, to wits end.

Emotions are nuclear so she took refuge in the bunker.

My words have lost all moisture, I’m spitting sand.

Each utterance placed more grains in the foundation of that castle.

Now there's a moat wedged between us.

I miss making you moan, motor boating, 30ft waves.

I’m basically surfing.

Will I ever tie the knot?

I’m doing X nautical miles.

I did it for your smile then I started doing it for mine.

Deluded love, diluted trust, we bicker, fight and cuss.

It's a beautiful day for rain, the sun's beaming.

Tears streaming down my face.

5559 - 28/11/21

You went swimming huh?

Skinny dipping in those navy waters, she raised her head from beneath the gene pool.

She likes me, she likes me not.

The petals argue, the petals speak the truth.

Now I got these flowers, should I place them on the nightstand?

Pole position, you were number one till you lost momentum.

The moments gone and all for what?

I don’t get human motivators.

Playing footsie, I must’ve been a fetish, my nigga let me not be facetious.

I do it for attraction, I do it cause I’ve practised too much inaction.

I’m now a director.

You ain't make the cut.

You scream moan and cum, you still ain't make the cut.

Scene; pretty little woman got filled from within, pretty woman faked deep, pretty woman fell quick, got up, wiped off her sleeves then dipped, aaaaand cut!

28484 - 10/12/2021

I'm a king of energy displacement, it's not wasted.

I enjoy what I do in procrastination.

These lines that I write get you deeper in my mind, I hope we play a mime set.

Our minds in space, let's set the pace.

Venus is so serene, a hope you enjoyed that line set.

Ain't sat down and dined yet, new crib and I’ve been having food and women delivered off apps like dassa fine set.

A selection of meats, date watchers, she's weary of desert.

A selection of me, she’s broody and I’m Zeus, I’ll transform into a Stork.

So far from prime, I once said if it all flopped I’d move out to the amazon and escape it all.

Living off the land, as one should be yet I can’t get you out of my head.

Fingers on my temple, you’re living in my mind rent free.

04848 - 26/12/21

I need to get it all out, this obsession with beauty.

I abstain yet stare profusely like how is this universal concept achieved?

Bubbling beneath my crust like magma, obsidian is obtained but trying to get to you is like staring through that black glass,

my nigga its opaque.

Rocked my world like an earthquake and it looked like a tornado just hit after you came.

Is it due to abandonment issues?

My abdomen be moving funny, I get butterflies when I’m with you.

Is this shit passion or is it infatuation?

I regurgitated my words in order to have you nourished.

I love to see you flourish even if the cost ‘cah feh mew mal.’

177 days spent collectively watching anime and still not a story remote to ours.

Their creativity is out of this world, have you heard of isekai?

Their imaginations still ain’t as vivid as you and I.

I know lucid, I work with Lucy who’s studying maths and the numbers still don’t add up to a sum greater than you and I.

I tipped 8 over, she's laying sideways.

Infinity won’t see the end of us.

Deuteronomy, Ron Howard, Ron Weasley.

I have the 5th booked off for us.

My passion burns brighter and more fiery than ginger.

I’ll part the sea like Moses and we can cross over.

0270 - 27/12/21

Jan, Feb, March came in like a lion, or should I say a lioness.

She had me laying less, eating more, speaking less.

At time baby you left me speechless, at times I’d bicker with you.

Thinking about them times now I miss you.

Fast forward past to back then, we’re laying in, whose turn is it to make breakfast?

Get ready, we’re headed out, ‘like now? I was kinda plotting on staying in.’

She wants to see the world, living vicariously, I stepped out with her.

Little did I know that the spring was soon to end and those roses I bought you would wither.

I know the power of words, I wish I bit my tongue before I sowed those curses.

I loved creampie’in you, you saw the flaws, those trees never took root.

Now I’m here clasping at vines like I’m from the jungle book, jumbled boo.

I fucked your head so much, baby baby, do you know how much fucking pleasure there was in fondling you?

Ah man, I Rilly fucked up ain’t I?

If I could redo I’d hollow out my head and allow the AI in me to work hard for you.

Sometimes I think it was artificial emotion, to whisper in your ear, tickle you, play fight and push your morals.

I’m at your boundary, if I’m airborne it’s 6, if I’m land based it’s 4, still 10 short of a score.

Lived a score and 5 and I can say hands down you were the time of my life.

I have exs, you ain’t meet that criteria cause you were my bestie.

40585 - 27/12/21

I’ve started categorising your type by ‘art’ in an attempt to understand your heart.

I hope to get at you with passion.

I was at you with action, you be the director.

I set the scene and you let me know when you’ve captured this segment together, forever.

Immortalise me.

I’ve started consuming you, heart and soul.

I’ll f**k you.

Forehead dripping with sweat, panting like this is life or death.

I’ll spit in your mouth as our tongues swirl for fun then you spit back at me that you like it rough.

You haven't been loved yet.

I appreciate the shit out of you like I know you ain't said, but you can have it.

Yes.

405839* - 25/02/22

The first thing that came to mind when I started writing was you.

How am I supposed to expand on a view that’s subjected to you?

Can I ever truly get at you?

I'm @you like ‘ahchoo’ you know I’m there with those blessings.

Blessing Mandure used to lectures us and you’d remain talking the entire way through, that mind of yours is a pendulum.

Them scars of yours are mesmerising, you should sing me a song then drag me to the bottom of the ocean.

I then reincarnate and we go at it again like I see that little mermaid rising.

49596 - 26/02/22

Going at it canoeing, if I’m being Frank I’m at it Solo.

This Oceans vast and if I’m honest, idk if I can do it no more.

So many fishes, so many fists thrown.

We ain’t even touch gloves before we started throwing blows.

Now I’m spinning clockwise, letting the pole bend.

I SEE YOU RIDING THE CURRENT.

I TOOK IN EVERY MOMENT IN YOUR PRESENCE.

Back to by myself, this process of reciprocation breeds reiteration like ‘you know your mistakes?

Did you ever make a true effort to change?’

I experienced a Nova in a week, I have passion but in comparison the way my candle burns is weak.

Now I’m left with rumination but I’d much rather be playing royal rumble in the sheets. 400572* - 06/03/22

Going easy on myself cause you wont on me baby, I need you pretty lady.

I’m far from perfect

I need your nurture, I want to be more mature then I want to grow old with ya.

Going back and forth, we be yo-yo’in, your every expression I capture in slow motion then in my mind I add the special effects.

Every moment a scene, the director of your passion, adoring you head to toe.

Taking you down wouldn’t be enough action.

Living in a rom-com, a sci-fi and a thriller, baby call me MJ.

I’ll beat it with ya.

Baby you’re my MJ, I can tell when you’re not right, I get a tingling sensation in my left letting me know that you’re uneasy.

I’ll be there in just a jiffy, lets go to Brighton Beach, let me buy you a Mr. Whippy.

Baby I’m Hassan Whiteside, put me in the paint and I’ll make it happen like Kareem.

I’ll have them pussy niggas cutting shapes then hit em wit that baby hook.

Baby look, the stork done brought us a present.

Living in the present, your presence is effervescent, baby you be my everything.

05959 - 11/03/22

I got words for days bruh, told pretty miss to take the trip down from Scarborough.

In my arms she said I aint know you have scars bruh don’t worry about that.

I’ll soon have you seeing stars and stripes ma.

What do you know about American revolution?

50 states, we could do about 50 first dates baby I be Adam Sandler.

The 2 of us just outchea, them 50s came in pairs like we equity managers.

Baby sell me your soul and you can have my shares, I have no use for material values.

I’m tryna place my investment inside you.

I’m tryna be more like you, ain’t my actions already say that baby, I like you.

Baby, I’d like to let your imagination run wild.

Doing up Madagascar, I like to move it move it, your legs on my shoulders.

I’m a disciple of love, BABY I SPEAK IN TONGUES.

My days are numbered, baby I do this in passion, in hopes I reach your heart.

My words mean nothing, I sow seeds in volcanic ash, I see the potential.

I know humans are inherently flawed, but to know God is to love many things, look into my eyes

let me see the Lord.

664748 - 16/03/22

Staring at the ceiling, beyond that I know there’s heaven.

I see you smiling, beyond that I know there’s treasure.

Time ain’t a fair measure of your worth to me, to be near you I’d move time and space.

No one can take that place, my heart is engraved, like brain cells it cannot be replaced.

So many saving graces, the heart palpitations are back, it's a race against time, against the ace.

Delicate state of being, delicate dates where delegates of my smile flaunt their passion.

I notice every little action baby, I capture motions lady.

I’m great friends with catchlyt, I know angles.

The way the God rays reflect off you it's crazy.

Been accused of being inactive, couple F’s to my name.

There’ll never be any L’s, I wont lose at your love.

For you I’ll work 3 jobs, call me Julius, I aint lazy.

All this fucking talking, I’m done now, I’ll get to walk walkin’.

I’ll show you I can do both, the great multitasker.

The great anti masker

Baby round you imma always be true

Baby can't name 3 niggas that’d go harder for you

Can't name 3 niggas that be harder for you.

3040584 - 18/03/22

Swapping spaces, she gave me Andromeda, I gave her Canis Major.

She likes chocolate, candy major, maybe I should give her the Milky Way too.

To wash that down, imma give her Betelgeuse.

Such brightness packed so densely, baby let me drink you like condensed milk.

I know carnation, I know coronations too , there's a positive correlation between me and you.

Take it from me, I live on SPSS, I can speak to cats too, 'spspspsps.'

All these vagina monologues, I’m tired of speaking in tongues.

Let me sign it with my body.

Let me mime it while you’re on top of me.

Trading places, the axis shift, I learned all of these from me exs.

Only numbers I’m focused on getting up are my soliloquies, my days are numbered so let me give you the best me.

Big MJ fan, let me beat it haphazardly, let me slowly lean in like the smooth criminal I am.

384859 - 21/03/22

Living in the present trying to balance the facets.

Let’s face it, I’m struggling little lady and I need your patience.

BSc soon to be PHd, I need patients.

I need to know we’re on the same PH, this journey is forever, we both shifting to neutral.

Show me there is affinity.

This story has many chapters, let’s not skip pages, I numbered them us to ∞.

The fact is, I’m grinding hard, tryna make time for love, for parents and my niggas.

Put my all into these strokes, you know you’re de facto.

The graft is now, how do I balance it with her smile?

I’m tryna live mine, plan for the future but there's right now witcha.

Don’t be Sakura, don’t let me seek greatness without 'cha.'

You know I BTK that pussy, baby I ain’t even from Wichita and I ain’t even wit cha.

204622 - 01/04/22

Spoken word, I spoke in oak.

I hope this shit ferment smoothly.

Her smile meant that I had disarmed her a little, I want to see your passions.

It’s a race against time, these are the best days of your life.

I want to see you living.

Work work work, I see you live in, come take a seat and let me see why you’ve only been existing.

I acknowledge your existence, I love pretty.

Beautiful encapsulates your soul.

Look into my eyes as we converse, I hope to swallow you whole.

You’re Jonah and I’m the whale, we can't escape our fate.

58505* - 03/04/22

People love you when they’re on your mind, and recently I’ve been constantly thinking about life.

I’m here like what is love?

Giving thought as currency, I’m trading energy in exploration of deeper meaning.

Are we doing this to alleviate the lonely or do y’all truly believe in a one and only?

I want it at times and at times I know I’m not accountable to another, so I spread my wings.

If my life span is measured by my feathers then how many letters have I received from those I gave pens and my skin?

The ink of my soul and the best of my being.

Me being facetious, you being feisty.

You looking good and I thinking the nasty.

Dance with me, I took from you confidence and a mystery.

A deeper desire for connection to whom I have no relation on this earth.

Could it ever be unconditional like my mothers?

Could you make everything okay with the use of no words, heal curses and tune strings on a grand piano?

Going for the grand title, could you beat a grandmother?

Could you beat a grand master of nurture?

Would you go on a P&O cruise with me?

Could you lift me up when I persecute and oppress myself?

Bouncing between the Confidence Island and the Isle of the Driven, next port is the Bay of Lethargic followed by a cruise along the Waters of a Manic.

I be my worst critic and top op, I think a lot and expect better but I’m tempted by sin always.

Fasting now, ask Rahma my colleague, I remember Z from college.

I gained knowledge and trust, I have high expectations of love.

111993* - 10/04/22

I've used that B word a lot, I’ve abused it.

'A B USE it before you lose it!' I hope it still has meaning to you.

I mean it at you when I say you’re beautiful.

Words falling short, my knees bruised up and I’m barely 5’9”.

Born the year after 95, my days are numbered but with you I feel forever.

In you I found time, its transitions and it’s limitations.

I’ve limited my X with you, I hope we never transition to Y, you hold the best days of my life in you Z.

Fucking around with Carling, I’m drinking beer at Marquel’s.

Fucking around with Lulah, I hope I never get to ya.

Fucking around with Rill in my dreams, this lucid escape be the shaté.

Biking to Sergej, is this how she gon serve me?

Talking about meant to be, the bees trees and I just want nectar.

Now I’m smoking up with Deshda, I should hit up Lil too.

I still think about you like we both going through it.

94950 - 11/04/22

Road to riches, I’m covered in stitches and I’m limping, ain’t I mentioned I got crutches too?

That one accident really did a number on me, my favourite is 8, dabbling with infinity.

You know I laid her down, she was a single digit, slim figure 8, you know I took my time getting to know her.

This moment is forever, I could tie the bands off this like this could be my love bonanza.

Slipped on a banana peel and I took the heel, ‘Lets have back and forth, let’s take losses together.

Let me show you wins, we’ll have wings, we can soar forever.

When it's sore, I’ll kiss it better.

I know fullness, my stomachs empty but with you my heart has indigestion.

Let me make this moment forever my favourite 8, my soulm8, my favourite d8, my ∞.

88888 - 13/04/22

Bros obsessed with love like I be obsessed with chicks.

Putting trust into hatchlings, he be living for short lived fires.

Brodies fucking with matches.

I be fucking with lighters, I prolly shouldn’t have lied to her.

Slayed it tho, you woulda thought I was Aaliyah.

On my way to riches, would joining the mile high club on this flight to heaven mean that I wont see Jesus?

My days are numbered, but I’m here camping out under the night sky, star gazing.

It's crazy but the constellations just be making your faces.

Stay out of my dreams, you figment of my imagination.

Cogito, ergo sum-moning jutsu.

I hope the words that I conjure forth get to you, my delivery method Hermes.

I should hit up Method Man for tips, I got Herculian sentences.

Ain't you see my dreads?

I got Samson strength, I crumble pillars, I’ll crumble Colosseums.

COLOUR HIM! COME AND SEE HIM FIGHTING LIONS, FIGHTING TIGERS, BITING BITCHES AND FIGHTING DEMONS.

49495 - 15/04/22

Back round and I done reed it up for the 3rd time already.

My heart really went out to play huh?

The suns up and this back and forth stuff is a great way to ruin the day hun.

I see you got the hots, it aint’ for me no more huh?

The sun's beaming down, light rays all around and they see me frowning.

Lover of the masses, and I got a thing for asses like you should call me donkey.

There he go again, objectifying women and clowning for the mandem.

Rhyming cause his heart heavy and his psyche goat, his psyche Messi.

I be thinking back to 10 and looking forward to 30.

Don’t test me nigga, I ain’t the 1, I be minus 0.

It’s freezing and I’m minus hoes, I GOT NO GARDEN.

The soil has nutrients, BUT I CANNOT PLANT MY SEED INSIDE IT.

A dying light, my nigga what is love?

I put my all in you, baby what is trust?

Relationship titles of the genders finish with ‘end’.

There be an ‘if’ in wife like we good?

He be a husk of himself, will that band of gold hold when surrounded by pretty hoes and loose women?

Time is synonymous with days being numbered, is there a time limit on true passion?

Even stars die too, how much hydrogen have I to apply to you?

848499 - 16/04/22

Stinking up the train, you woulda thought I was Wiz Khalifa.

Smelling of that reefer, my habits are becoming synonymous with me.

Symptoms of me regressing has me spending more time in solitude.

I be thinking of you, that's symptomatic of love.

I hate passion, that shit identical to drugs, I can't get enough.

I hope I overdose on love, I’m treading a trivial existence.

Traversing the valley between her bosom, could she fill the chasm?

Hey sugar, I’m Cassim.

I’m an automata, sinning comes as second nature like Drizzy and RnB.

Social pariah, rabid piranha, her kiss was crack and now I’m foaming at the mouth.

Her embrace was a salvation, a dove with a branch in its beak.

I've been at sea for ages, my soul is the arc, her laying her head on my chest were the waters that cleansed me.

The floods are here yet I remain waterless.

In response, I should ‘What?’ her less in conversation about my wrong doing.

227345 - 30/04/22

Ain’t into the 12 days of Christmas, where I’m from ain’t no chimneys so you know Santa missed us.

I could put a partridge in a pear tree and that sight still won't please me as much as seeing that smile on you.

I’ve got my eyes on you turtle dove, don’t run, I know you be turtling to love like your limbs done retracted.

Let me learn your love language.

I could make redactions but I’m hoping for a reaction, I’ll light up your heart.

Calling her Rudolph, fuck with me and you’ll reign, dear.

Get away to the alps, on white mornings we’ll cuddle in front of the fireplace on that faux bear watching the reindeer.

Side smiles, little giggles and quirks, I be quirk-less, call me Deku.

Her hands in my hair, she handing me right here and now, this moment is priceless.

So this be life huh? Is this passion?

I might change my name to All Might, all right.

I’ve left that negativity behind me.

Clutching my hand pulling me forward,

Onward to forever with my trouble.

0022004 - 01/05/22

In search of love, I found lust.

I fondled with your emotions, I fumbled those intimate touches.

Holding onto the torch as we journey through the dungeon.

I placed too much value in your my neon soul, I should place you on a pedestal.

She belongs to the world, I seek only worldly pleasures.

She’s no girl to take home to mother, I see her mothering my kids.

Taking shots straight to the kidneys, her knees are bruised and her nose runny.

Her eyes teary and she looks so pretty.

She needs me, she wants me not, yet I slave over her giving all I’ve got.

Switching styles, I Gok Wan of a kind in you, we should switch sides.

I gave up machismo for you.

I’ll give up machines and technology for you.

Living in my head, I gave up my dream of you.

Now you’re surrounded, I placed that halo around you.

You ask Y, there could be O other vowel, I placed U on la tour Eiffel.

There could be no other consonant, there could be only one constant.

I’ll place you in the sky you fucking constellation.

78888* - 16/05/22

Extravagant trappings.

If I were to travel to lands end, would she be able to adorn a mannequin?

A handkerchief tucked into my pocket square.

I solemnly swear, I’ll give it all I’ve got.

All my flaws, along the floors of my house we’ll prance around bare.

We’ll tortoise and share, life goes by like a hare.

We’ll be there then, let’s share right now.

Passion and pointing fingers, things turned sour like the Reich 3rd time round.

Surrounded by NATO, you douse me with napalm.

You’ve left the premises, vacated my name from your mouth.

You still live in my mind.

Back to baggy clothing, the sags underneath my eyes, I’m having Saag Chicken at work.

Currying favour, if I keep repeating these actions, there is sure to be flavour.

Turmeric stains, check your fingernails.

I placed a band on your digitus medicinalis.

I really mean this, you are the medicine my heart needs.

The best and worst of my days, in my lasts breaths I will think of you.

The irony in a fleeting existence and an ever expanding time space.

Take time to savour within the rat race.

I’ve seen rats get devoured by snakes, and they by great birds only for them to fly into windows.

The wind blows, we place our feelings on the breeze, the leaves are green. God willing we will see them transition to orange, fall off and blossom again.

I placed within you my seed, contraceptives mean it will not take root.

The square root of man and woman is to multiply.

The true purpose of love lies in living an indiscriminate life.

939594* - 16/06/22

How could I get ahead of myself?

My head is attached to my shoulders but my unwillingness too means I always go in feet first.

How could I be besides myself?

I sit in the same room day to day doing the same things, I lay in my shadows.

How could I get near my self?

Your personality is so bipolar, one moment the Sarah, the next you’re so Artic.

One minute you’re solar, the next you exist as light without heat, soul lust.

You sold her a dream, placed her on a pedestal then stole the solar energy she had to give.

Her sole love, you opened up the faucet and let her soul run.

Showering in her passion.

Salivating at her sacrifices.

Licking up every droplet of what she dripped.

I lay my head on my ex chest.

A bosom of gold, what did I expect?

I first found the treasure there and now I’m returning.

The goal was a voyage around the world to throw others off the trail, a lot did not make it due to dysentery.

Will my existence live past this century?

Time is soo finite.

Human lives are like sand, we will soon outnumber the starry night.

Are you burning brightly?

I stole from a star once, I now ask politely.

0000433 - 23/06/22

Yesterday my legs bore the brunt of the weight.

Today I’m a tortoise stranded on its back.

The armour that once sheltered me always kept me from amor.

Now I’m flicking through the armoire trying to find the better segments of our days.

So many candids, I’ve got us captured in polaroids and digits.

That can do attitude you got meant that I can't do without you.

Training away, I’m trading away my desires of endless rest for growth of self confidence.

99994* - 19/11/22

Coveting beauty, if I could hoard you I would.

Questioning whether I chase her body or personality.

I see a person before me and sexualise her.

Trying to face up, I’m having sex with my abandonment issues.

Trying to plant seeds, I placed in two fingers.

Little did I know, I possess no green thumb.

Flakes of the green on my hands, ash flakes onto my white tee.

Placing no value on worldly possessions, what she gave to me was priceless.

Holding onto the memories that made us, we should make up.

Foundation for who I am now, questioning who I am meant to be.

At sea with no sense of direction, let’s turn those embers into flames.

Turn the lighthouse into a light home.

My heart is on a voyage.

My head seeks a home, yet home is where the heart is.

494949* - 09/01/23

Safe space, I saved face until I could get back to being surrounded by your being.

Better out than in said Shrek to Fiona, if I wept in your arms would you still consider me an ogre?

Questioning is it over?

Am I still the man of your dreams when in my feelings?

I’m selfless yet selfish, I see my father in me and grow weary.

Asking will my tears become rain one day if they drop and join the puddle?

Swimming around in muddy water, I’m Tilapia.

With these two lips I could kiss you.

In the same breath I could eat you too.

I could build you up and tell you how pretty you look and with half that breath make known to you my discontent.

I should disconnect, the LAN party is crowded.

My mind is a scarecrow and you are the raven sat on my shoulder.

949599 - 10/02/23

Moonlight accompanies this candle lit encounter.

I’m sat next to fire, the flame flickers as the wax drips.

I’m scorching and she is in heat, passion is what we’re discussing.

We can see the castle in the distance, her walls are crumbling.

The LED lights led us here, I know you feel strongly about subliminal messages.

I’m speaking with my eyes, I hope they convey this.

‘You’re soo… baby.’

748484* - 22/02/23

You’re the one thing I want, you’re also the only thing stopping me.

Battling oxymorons, the oxycontin helped break up the vicious cycle.

Mouth to mouth was what I needed, the oxygen helped me breathe a little clearer.

Golden showers, it’s a clear blue sky yet the results say it’s positive.

I must be transgender, I’m carrying these feelings for both of us.

9 months later was 9 months too late, we should have delivered love together.

88884* - 28/02/23

Better to have loved and lost, in an effort to justify wasted time.

Reiterating what’s meant to be will be, staring in the mirror looking soo Bob Marley.

Waiting in vain, I don’t wanna but I see the rains over the horizon.

Next time you call I won’t pick up, Viola’s favourite song is Kaya.

Cry my a river, the Danube separates us like Romania and Bulgaria.

Lila called me out, always being picked out the line up.

Opah!

I want to be on Oprahs book of the month, so why am I feeding birds?

On par for a mediocre existence, I should be more adept with my shot selection.

849405 - 05/03/23

Expelling negative energy, I’m shrouded in deceit.

Flights booked to Turin, I should have kept the receipt.

I can’t take back the love, I gave it because I wanted.

Accepting rejection.

Scared of needles but the IV drip made me feel whole.

Letting her loose, she belongs to the world.

Tying the noose, I long to sever the lead.

Prancing around my feelings, dancing around Mt Jimmy.

I should live with the Rastas and the hippies.

For once I wished someone would tell me shut the fuck up.

For once I wish to get the fuck on, my time is wasted on people.

I should dedicate myself to my art.

Placing it within empty canisters, filling up like water.

It’s bottled shaped, now it looks like a glass.

Last girl you gave it to made you look like an arse.

2838484* - 01/04/23

She didn’t want to see me.

I’ve been ostracised, ostriches can’t fly and here I am showing of my feathers like a peacock.

Making loud noises as I ride by.

I’m overcompensating for something on this Harley Davidson.

I no longer believe in holy matrimony, we both swiped right and parted ways the next morning without a goodbye.

Saying I’ll see you later.

The ocean is vast and she was just a sequel.

I be finding Dory.

I be escaping reality like welcome to Balamory.

Bailing my psyche out of this perspective, reality placed me on bail.

Conditions state that I am to love and loss.

Time in introspection showed me that I lust too much.

In an effort to Van Gogh, every women I loved was an extension of God.

Them letting me go was for their own good.

There is no moor to be had.

She’s asking, ‘Is that all you got?’ knowing full well there’s a plethora of sadness and sadism within me.

488484 - 28/04/23

Who’s prettier than you?

No one.

Put that together and you’ll have the answer to who reigns over you.

None.

From 8 to 10, I could never back step, they don’t compare.

Nein.

Who’s pettier than you?

Me.

To get her put away that meaner me, yet at times I be reactionary.

Man.

From 0 to 80, you’re the 20% tethering me, I need this.

100.

No more to be said, on my moor is where I rest my head.

I mourn no more.

The morning is here, all that money yet immortality was the motive.

We’re all divisible by 3, I seek harmony with your trilogy.

6895895 - 13/06/23