Cass too lusts.

A soul manifests itself to the world through action. The cruelness of the world completely shun and at times forced moments of doubt and introspection. In time, the cruelness ignites a passion which solidifies the character of the soul. Through hard times its character is truly formed. The mysteries of life & death, the treacheries of love and relationships, it embraced it all. In moments of anger, depression, sorrow, the mystery of death would whisper.

My pursuit for happiness has brought about so many more questions. At moments, there are extreme feelings of panic and fright when my mortality is subconsciously brought to the forefront of my mind. Quickly subsided, the journey has left me with even more questions. How does one describe the frustration, beauty, madness and euphoria. How does one embody their journey?

1 - unknown

Clasping at straws

She slips through my fingers like sand

As bountiful as stars

How ill of fate that I grasp the shortest?

Honey Honey - unknown

Come

Wrap your lips around me.

Let loose

The trials

The tribulations

The treachery

Let me free you from reality

Let go of inhibitions

Let me help you vocalise your visions

Those in your life do you wrong

You’re a strong man

You’re now a bound man

Lets have fun

You can’t go wrong

Rum, run

Social or solitude

I fit every mood

I am devastating

You capitulate

But with me,

You’re great.

Hmm - unknown

Doom

An unhealthy fascination of a future of

Gloom

The heavens downpour with feelings of

Sorrow

Smile plastered as you tread hoping for a better

Tomorrow

Ahh - unknown

In anguish

He dropped to his knees

Time to finally speak to his father

One he never knew

But stood by you

Through thick.

Thin.

Everything in between.

Father father...

The Heavens - unknown

As the light of dawn gleamed through,

So too begins a new chapter for you.

You survived the uncertainty of night,

Sleep the cousin of death let you rest.

The fire which is your life wasn’t extinguished,

So let forth ring your anguish.

This life is toil, this life is labour,

Decisions not always in your favour.

Your actions an extension of your passions,

Their reaction forced questions of self reflection.

I did for you. I want you to LIVE FOR YOU.

We all die. Let's find peace in the sky.

1Y - unknown

Lonely nights

The fright of youth

The worries of bead

Of breath

Tis’ brief

A slow disbelief

That this isn’t the final me

Ye who stray from the line

Of a youth lost to time

A mind in a situation

Of a repetitive time to time

To Be - unknown

Or not to be,

A destiny bickered amongst the Gods,

Or just another life at the odds.

Of fate.

Of chaos.

Of decision.

In search of more meaning,

I adhere to a society devoid of passion.

The flower bulbs,

To blossom.

To be stomped on.

To capitulate.

A nomad,

I wonder, what of thee?

A hierarchical society.

A pyramid.

I need.

A seed.

On your marks, get set

Who starts with a lead?

The sheer futility.

Fine wine.

Fine women.

Hallucinogens.

Of mice and men.

I miss the ignorance,

‘to perceive a world of pure bliss.’

Comfort.

Sorrow.

Friend.

The foundation long laid.

You my maid, I your slave.

But you remained till the end.

High off Life - unknown

The feeling of right now, as of now

I can.

Immortality and convictions

The morality of nows decision

For fun.

A feeling of forever

Within this tranquil, the heart flutters

For destruction.

Peace of mind

A state of fate

I wait.

Implosion of the expression

Comfort in regression

Of perception.

The beauty within the beast

My favourite cyclical sprint

To whom do you ‘beck and call’

You come down

Where do you fall?

Oh vey.

Darkness - unknown

Descent into darkness,

The madness rang forth.

You’re alone.

Yet still, someone's there

But are they for you?

Do they moor you?

Good and bad sense of self

In moments of distress, I turn to you for help.

My greatest confidant

Who’s with me when I’ve been led astray.

Do you change?

Am I a product of choosing foul ways?

I was pleased, there was pleasure.

But to what standards does my character measure?

I fed the soul,

But glutton was the physical toll.

Women, drugs, wine

Who could dear not feast.

I miss people,

I haven’t made peace.

Flashforwards - unknown

The good ol’ days

A fraction of who you thought I’d be

Yet still not my greatest me

But you

You

The one I held true

Thank you.

The journey,

Memories.

Madness,

Sadness,

Passion.

All make me who I am.

Colour Hierarchy - unknown

A fable old

Of a feeble soul

Who never fit the mould

Better than the rest

Still deemed inadmissible to the best

Was it character?

Or shades of a preconceived colour

What of his worldly deeds?

Did his blood, sweat and tears not matter?

How much fairer is fair

When fairer colleagues get there

With much less fare

With much less flair

With so much less dependent

On their success right then and there

1X - unknown

7.5 bil

Yet none to help me

Reality onto me

How could you help me?

Finicky, famished, frustrated

I journey on

I beat it with your help

Won't you help me when it returns?

I won't return

I never helped

You grew.

Niggas - unknown

Belligerent niggas

Wrapped up in the fun of now

To realise they’re tomorrow's leaders

In the prime of youth

In the moment of now

We scowl at responsibility

And the prospects of fute

For the wages of sin is death

An eternal life of leisure the trade

For worldly pleasure.

Of moments in high anxiety

It seems this world only served

To test your sanity

& love to test your vanity

Perceptions of the earth

You conceptualise your life as bound to this world

A mind moulded in the savannahs

Food, clothing, shelter

The meta for survival.

Group Mentality - unknown

Timeless as she ages

Progress through wisdom stages

Experience not altered

Overall, efforts falter

Lost in what is what is

It is what puts I at unease

Lost in the sea of group

Who is to lead the coup

Leaf in the tree

Or leaf in the wind

Lunar Spring - unknown

I’ll sing of euphoria

I’ll sing of crying

Reminiscence of phases within my mind

Of times grand and bleak

Of lows and of peaks

Beauty of momentum along the y axis

Said all there is to say

Expressions of feelings

Of another day

Where time stands still

And life is as cyclical

As water down a hill

Youth - unknown

A flower bulb

The baby blossoms

To what prevail?

Who shall it hail?

God? The Sun? Gravity?

Its defiance

Bound but not by captivity

A strong reliance to the escape

The root of evil, the toil of years

Being without, many a fear

The flower sways

The sweet nectar of youth

The finer days

Defiance strong

This life seems long

I do not want to

Get where I'm from

I don’t love money

I don’t want to conform

Mr/Mrs Everybody - unknown

That timeless classic

The end of thine

The distant cousin

That release of inner mind

Persia is saturated in

The sands of time

Lives digress as we invest

In what we deem as goal progress

The simple pleasures

The worldly gain

Friends, family, fun

The rewards of pain

Tinker, tailor, soldier

Toil away labourer

An honest day's worker

It's what they label her

Pathway paved in blood

The reward of her days

Here lies mr/mrs/ 3 score & 10

They lived following our ways

Never spreading their wings

They've succumb to the Lords 25550 days.

Breeze - unknown

Words, the birds, life

What I'd do to soar like a kite

Violence, seeds, trees

Upbringing represented by good deeds

Many, many, many a need

Too too too much greed

Oh well, to hell - a reality indeed

Kobe - 27.01.20

The world became a darker place today

As heaven shone a little brighter

The contrast between the two

Both worlds made beautiful by you

All you did was play

There was more than that, but that was your day to day

You were here today, but not here today

Tears streaming down face, sweat gleaming off race

You drove, your drive set others in play

Your love immortalised through just doing it your way

& that was all

Till you could give no more

Life is a tragedy, but also a beautiful tale

Cruel kiss by the mistress, but forever shall we hail

Kobe as we fade, a paper ball or can

Black Mamba we love you

You’ll live forever, as long as we.

Puff Puff - 19.02.20

Drag drag

A momentary wither of woes

Monetary struggles (of goals)

Exhale

A faded relief

Relief ever fading

The moment constant

Thought patterns ever changing

Toke toke

Ashes to ashes

Life fading

Return to a state of smoke

Dust.

My lust for an escape

Trust.

A soliloquy with you

Fuck.

Move - 23.02.20

Evolution pending

Finicky, famished and frustrated

Them I’m related to just died

I aint know a mother for a while

Dear - 25.02.20

Dear friend

Stomach empty

Minds anxious

Eatings a mess

Upward & outward

The first and last struggle

Moment ever fleeting

This is hard

So opportunity for growth

I must be true

It must be the process

Evolution two wards

A life of acceptance

Passionate and purposeful actions

Two words, I am.

Elude - 26.02.20

An unimaginable beauty

So astounding

It eludes me

She belongs to the world

But my thought trap me

The perception of you

Since those dark days

You never went away

When I realised it wasn’t worth it

You made me realise it wasn’t worth it

For you come to all

In moments of sadness, ill health

Prime youth, fine health

You give value to life

Through you do we attain

Great value and purpose

To the earth we remain

To the expanse around her

In Hopes That - 26.02.20

You find me one day

Your life and mine are the same

Both sway, a struggle in tandem

For a moment in hay

Bygones of the moment

That faded away

Birds in the Trees - 26.02.20

These beautiful bees

These fucked up knees

Stumble stumble stumble

Journey through a mystery

The abyss, an unavoidable conclusion

The Making Of - 27.02.20

A perilous path paved with procedure

Unfulfilled purposes left self disunite

To add value to life, I set out at dark

The mystery of the abyss,

A world not set in the way of light

For what if shone upon can never be bright

For what is in the dark radiates

Uncertainty, Mystery, Beauty

So that tonight, I am free

Not forced to live with the light

Society’s shone on me

But the darkness in the dark

Never shone so bright

It Has Passed - 27.02.20

For he that dwelleth

The night has ended

The darkness of the abyss above fades

The light which is my soul cascades

Falling at the foot of you

Thou art, the root - the truth

The motivations behind the day

Opening doors anew, step forward

Toward, predestination

A nation conquered by you

The great dictator

Your rule soiled dreams

The Flower - 27.02.20

Beauty she rose

The flower sways

Will I receive her sweet nectar today?

Sun kissed petals

Its radiance

A guiding light

A must suckle,

A bouquet all wrapped in one bundle

Bees weak to their knees

Recollections of her a spring

Blossom through adversity

A dynasty formed in passion

Words - 27.02.20

I want to reach you, I ought to

I thought a thought that you would think through

But within my mind, there’s boroughs

No though conclusive, not indecisive

The joy, madness, frustration that all lie inside

A melancholy that rips reality in two

Subtle lullaby that precedes

A sunset so beautiful

A mundane reality, turned upside down

Soliloquy - 27.02.20

Who art thou?

To be or not to be

Preconceived notions

Unstable emotions

Thou hath been

Alpha and omega

You are your own beginning and end

Through process thou doth mend

Evolve anew

A truth so truly raw to the soul

Transitions - 27.02.20

What is the meaning of life?

Are questions only answered in death?

The sum of the journey

I want, I wain

I’m cold, I know warmth

You left

I’m cold

It hurt less

Now I’m old

It never ends

That's all there is

The summary of these thoughts

Expressions of a mad man

These expressions of mime

I know your limits

I know what you won't do

Would you graduate to prove to you?

Transition

We phase through this phase

1 step closer to you

Maybe the inevitable

Maybe to conjure is to invite

Abel, a bell, able.

Euphoria in the moment

Ever fleeting

The soul, ever seeking salvation

From the mind

Duality of the two

Co-operation not a facet of you

You’re part of the group

Yet where are you?

In group looking out

Grass is greener on the other side

Those pastures are baron

Not a soul

In your life there's a famine

Perspective - 28.02.20

You walk past & think ‘negro’

Talk down to me, you still need me tho?

Cog in the machine with a dream

Replaceable puzzle piece

Was my immortality worth these sins?

Did partaking of the flesh mean I’ll never be full within?

My maker

Self breaker

You find pleasure in fantasy

Mystery in death

And in life...

Enlightenment as you navigate this...

This shit so much fun

Never had so much fun

Still in solitude

Never had I so much sun

You radiate your radius

But you’re yet to succumb

I know my father, he still loves his sun

I still miss my grandmother

Thats where the mystery begun

Until I sank to anew

Beginning of you.

Until it’s over.

You’ll live on forever

One Day - 02.03.20

You will get the better of me

You are the better me

Confidence filled

Climb the fence quick

You know what side to whom you belong

Once upon a time, the womb

A happily ever after, a tomb

A beginning toward an end

My comfort throughout the stages

Anew acceptance through the ages

My worst fan and favourite critic

A con’s sign

No sign of a conscious

You fiddle, you play

Always know just what to say

I smile

I give you all of me

You capitulate

There's none of me

Lamentations - 04.03.20

Of the soul

A blood red moon

I can't express

She left too soon

Known by only I & I

& greatest on high

My deepest desire to break down

& cry, cry, cry.

A life shrouded in a lie

Awake, I lay in wake

A wake too soon

Never could I grasp the concept of no moon

Provided comfort in silence

Solitude my closest escape to you

A fresh breath to the face

You were a second wind

A gust up the Ba-De-Lin

Your wails were the worse

Why did you you have to exalt such a curse?

Little did I know

I should have been at bosom

You were the foundation for a flower to blossom

In death there is meaning

A las I saw truth

A family devoid of love

Held together by you

You get what you want

But what's it really worth?

My one and only

My favourite connection

You gaze through death's veil

Without you I was veal

Chewed and spat at life's’ door

Reveal. Copings with life I created you

The furthest from what you natured

Your daughter told me

That ain’t my mother

I don’t know if I love her

I’m sure I do, but all I wanted

Was to be someone's son

11 children, 30 something grandkids

But in my universe

To me,

You truly made me one.

Hmm - 04.03.20

Chaos in the wind

Lust, trust and sins

A drive for fun

A joy cut short due to mortality

Impudent, impulsive and impatient

Where is your morality?

What's your perspective on life?

How do you see the world now?

Moments ever fleeting

Yet beauty everlasting

Duality of the two

Two sides of the same coin

That's you

Mirror mirror who's’ the best version

Have my trials and tribulations been worth it?

Mirror mirror did I grow?

Evidence where?

It does not show.

A Must Have - 05.03.20

Physical pleasure at your leisure

Of flesh plump and sweet

Softly I kiss your cheeks

Sweetest nectarine

Why won't you let me in?

My deepest yearning

A bond of lust, trust & a driving must

To immortalise this love

Whether it be wanderlust

A Casanova complex

An unhealthy bond

Either way this is the making of a mom

A passionate moment

My monument your cum

My testament your fun

Mind and body as one

You will be my greatest pleasure

Until my days are done.

Start Now - 05.03.20

For forever might only be today

And life would have just drifted away

Dictation - 06.03.20

Put words together

To begin composing a letter

For what is sanity but a realist perspective?

And vanity being you, the only objective

Achieved goals out what weigh?

Did you truly feed the soul?

Was metamorphosis never your goal?

So to what extent did you mean your actions?

Mind and soul are disjointed

Disharmony the weighted sum of fractions

Life’s equations

We are our own limitations

Why limit self

Environment around you is limitless

The internalisation of stimuli

Perspective on the world stimulates I

OCD (Oh Cass, dear) - 07.03.20

Why so stubborn

Why so thick skulled

Have you not hurt your head?

You mingle with thoughts of

Grandeur and death

Fascinated by the mystery

You brought so much misery

Yet you remain ‘the unparalleled truth’

Mortals captive and bound to your rule

I can't escape you

My ever fleeting life span

Each moments first and last

My heart ran

Effervescent in the young man

But aren't they always before slaughter?

Your love should mean more

Who openly give up their daughter

To a cruel man

Dark Matter - 10.03.20

The beautiful unknown

Foundation for energy

The cosmic fabric of everything

Oh what it means to be free

Of being the reason you stay grounded

Centrifugal forces

The reason why you’re so well rounded

Constantly expanding

A mystery we cannot see

Escape - 10.03.20

Perilous

Of all those times aimless

Of moments without virtue

Of not accepting a future with you

The world from these eyes

We worry not of tomorrow

It is already written

Victor

History

The mysterious book of life

The past, present and to come

All written now

Mates, dates & fate

All a general theory of relative

Oh Youth - 14.03.20

I luh these kids

So full of life, joyous and

Belligerent.

So wild, free and

Ignorant.

Beauty in the unseen

Misfit to society

Defined by your belonging

To feel alive

You grasp the moment

The group mentality metamorphic

Me, myself and I

Hmm - 06.04.20

Words so sweet

Have I paid the piper?

Too fine the stitching

The carvings of her body

Sculpted by the gods

Your laugh truly a weapon

My greatest accomplishment yet

Thoughts of my success

I hear laughter, I know there’s smile

Unaware of my demise

Melodies of the flute

Remedy of one's youth

Who knew the success

Of a determination true

Goal achieved in disbelief

I know you think about me

As you’re on my mind

You’re fading, my only comfort

I wish you were here

I need you, my only friend

Arms wrapped around her

Heart on sleeve, eyes perceive

Just for me,

Till the day I die

I will be,

The makings of you.

Taking you, protecting you

& when it's all said & done

Leaving to prepare a place for you.

人間 (Ningen) - 16.06.20

Oh to be

To truly perceive

What it means to be me

Point of self

Imperfections I only see in

Reflections.

Hallowed out head

Visions of the world

Carved by what the past said

Oh to be

Loneliness only ever alleviated

Drugs, sex, wine, work - the meds

Momentary madness is youth

In what do I hold true?

Relationships from my view

My view, what? Who cares? Fuxk you.

Oh to be

To claim to show sympathy

To know another’s ache.

Maybe, I know not your fate

Solidarity in the strife of another

Makings of a brother

You will never know

I will never know

Oh to be

Ningen

Another Day - 16.06.20

I see light

Or rather, it reached me

The dawn of a new day

Taken for granted

The thoughts feelings and moods of yesterday

I smile

The grass is green

From this side I see contrasts

Confusion the conclusion

I journey on

Her - 25.06.20

She quivered

It came to soon

The expanse known as abyss

Faded from black to blue

Her thoughts weightless as they drifted

Moored to the ever changing winds of fate

Unhealthy fixations

Maybe infatuation

But what good is a use by date?

A-b-use before it's too late

A-muse, for the inarticulate

Admiration, reliance, a bond

As a bee to the sweet of nectar

Upon her return, I’ll be next to her

Thirst - 25.06.20

Battered, badgered and belittled

The conclusion?

The commencement of destruction

The end of civilization.

A quest of singularity

Why hath society shun me?

A single cell

A hierarchy of beings

What art thou of my needs?

Anarchy

Struggles with demons

Internal and external locus of control

Who are thou to colour my soul?

& let he who exist without preconceived notions

Cast the first stone.

Unrefined - 25.06.20

These moments of doubts

Are but a stepping stone

Towards becoming the greatest

Self physician.

Blood stained diamonds

You whip gems

Almost past the point of hem

Stitch thine soul

Make me whole

A figure

Moulded by past deeds

Of 7

Dialogue - 29.06.20

Let me express.

Every time I was mad, every time I doubted me.

Every time I thought this life had nothing for me.

Let it be known.

I lived, I loved.

I felt.

I thought.

Descriptions of You - 06.07.20

A smile

As for a while

Its ok.

My past,

Future,

Present

Are now.

You moulded

We fought

You held

You mend

Indecisiveness of youth

Fickle ideals held as truths

Memories made

Futures pondered

How it all manifested

I wonder

Will I be Ok?

Into the wild,

What you made

Fed,

Broke down.

Put together back whole

Here Now - 08.07.20

The here now

The there after

I’m right here now

But I’ll be there after

Don't sleep like the hare now

Or you’ll be there after

Ah Fuck -11.07.20

Dear friend

As I lay here

The past and future are now

For I ponder

What depth am I at now?

I wonder